Hello darlings, so this post is a super random. Nothing at all to post about. Well, i may have a few stuff to post about, but it's been really fucked up. Well, for starters, never believe there is such a thing as a prince charming. They don't exist. Maybe in fairy tales & all? But not in real life. theres no perfect guy out there/ born soulmate/ pre-destined lover/ Knight in shinning armor out there for every girl.
Yeah maybe for some lucky bitches. Who are either really deserving of one, Or has boobs 50 times bigger than her brain. Yeah. To those bitches, fuck you. My finger wants to say hi.
Seriously, there is no such thing. As FUCKING FAIRYTALES anymore. Get over it. the sooner everyone does, the fucking better.
Next, i wanna mention those bitches who just love to flirt, FUCK YOU.
Even worse, To those bitches who Flirt with ATTACHED guys. Or guys who clearly have some relationship with someone already.
To those bitches who are already attached, & still flirt & fuck around with attached guys, OHMYGAWD. I sympathize your boyfriend & i sympathize your parents for being cursed with a prostitute for a daughter. Go to hell & fuck the ppl there, not the ones who clearly deserve better.
Next, Guys who lie. What do you think we girls are? Stupid? Bitch please. You motherfarking dumbfucks. Never underestimate a woman with an intention. If she has her mind sit to it, fuck yes she will do it. You think that we can be cheated so easily? huh. FUCK YOU.
To those guys who cheat? oh yeah, fuck you more. You like to fuck around huh? WHY? itchy? scratch uh. GIAN SONG UH? Masturbate lug fuck. Or you fuck too many girls you forgot how to? WATCH PORN LAH. Well, I hope you enjoy it. i hope you fuck them bitches hard. & fuck them well. Kindly fuck far off from us girls who actually deserve a decent guy. I hope you fuck so many girls you eventually get some STD or better yet, AIDS from one of them luh.
To all of you out there who have gotten your heartbroken by these worthless bastards & bitches, I FEEL YOU. To those who haven't? Get the fuck ready to be. Cos there is fucking no such thing as a fairytale happy ending. NO FUCKING WAY.
Now, TO YOU. I gave you everything. There was nothing else left to give. I loved with all my heart & soul. All the countless beating & scolding i got from everyone because of you. & other more fucked up stuff I'm not gonna mention here. It still wasn't enough. Lie to me, I let it go. Flirt, i let it go. Take drugs, i let it go. Leave me on our 20th month, i let it go. Replace me, i let it go. But Fucking fuck around & after i found out still continue flirting with over girls after i painstakingly let you in again? FUCK YOU. Seriously. I was so angry. I wanted to fucking cut your dick off & feed it to the sharks. But i'm just afraid i'd pollute them with such a dirty piece of meat that probably has some sort of STD already. But you know what? anger i can get over. But the pain & hurt you've inflicted on me this time. I can't even describe the feeling. I think of you & i have sudden moments when I'm oblivious to the fact that there are tears rolling down my face. I suddenly miss you & i break down. I wanna forget you so much that i just feel like screaming. I don't just hurt in my mind, i can physically feel the pain in my chest & i just want it to stop. I can't bring myself to forget you i feel so pathetic. Like some addict hooked on some kinda drug, yeah thats probably the only way i can describe how i feel about you. Its killing me, you're killing me, but i don't have the willpower nor the strength to say goodbye & watch you walk away. Cos even if i manage to, i end up letting you in again. Its like I'm one of those toys you love when you first get, you keep playing with it, then you get sick of it, you toss it to one side. After a few months or maybe even years, you suddenly find it among your old toys & you suddenly find it amusing again you start playing with it again till you eventually get sick of it again. & it continues until the toy is so worn out it just breaks. & thats exactly how i feel right now. Broken. you broke me. But I'm surrounded by people who i don't wanna worry & upset. I should not have let you in again. i just gave you another chance to hurt me. But you what? I love you too much to say no. I will always love you, but i can't take this anymore... i would rather just be forever alone then cry myself to sleep every night. We will never be the same again boy. Each time i think of you now, i think of her in your arms & the scene of you in her room. The rest i can't even type out. Sometimes i just wish it was all a bad dream that i can snap my fingers & wake up from. I want it all to go away. But y'know what? it never will. You broke us the minute you decided to go her house & take drugs. The rest you can blame on the drugs, but you signed up for it the minute you stepped into her house. I can no longer trust or believe you. I no longer see you as that loving boyfriend who would stop at nothing to have me & would love me through thick & thin, no matter what happened. I see you as just another guy i will never feel good enough for. You always told me i was perfect, all you ever needed. then you go & do that to me? I where not enough? loose weight, makeup, dress nicer. all for who? you FFS. You want me to feel happy about myself? but everything you do just makes me feel worthless. like i'm never ever gonna be good enough for any guy. You say sorry & all, but what do you expect me to say? Its okay? nevermind? just forget it? No, I'm sorry i can't do that.
But i will be fine. I have learned to expect this kinda things from you. I've learned to expect less in order to get less disappointed. I miss you already. i just wished you'd wake up & change, maybe not for me, at least treat your next girl right & don't do this to her cos no girl deserves this kinda treatment. NOBODY does. But i'll be okay. stronggirl96.
For now, I'm just gonna leave it at this. this post is just a rant about how i feel about my whole situation & its supposed to make me feel better, but sadly, it has no difference. I gotta let you go.
So this is probably a really long post. gonna stop ranting now. Sorry if this annoyed any of y'all. you can just ignore it. Will be back & updating with more interesting stuff tomorrow or the day after. Bye
Xoxo.
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