Hello cupcakes so the past few days have been busy but today's pretty open and the boy is just sleeping away in ma bed and i'm rotting on my sofa so day 2, let's go.
Okay so for day 02, " Where you'd like to be in 10 years." okay so i am not so much sure of if they mean this literally, like which country or what situation, but i'm guessing it's more of how i want my life to be like 10 years from now?
If you've known me since i was a lil kid, you'd know that i've always wanted to be a doctor. I think part of me secretly still does. It would range from being like just a General practitioner to like a Veterinarian and sometimes even to a full blown general surgeon cutting people up and shit. What happened? Life. So as you grow up, you learn things, about yourself and about how fucked up the universe works.
So in hopes of pursuing that path i was hell bent and driven to get into this course in SP, Biomedical, cos i did research and all of which i found out i'd eventually get to practise along the lines of cardiology. In early sec 3 i discovered my unexplainable passion and how intrigued i was by the studies of the heart, thus the want to study cardiology. Early this year, i was given a chance to actually do even better, i was given the chance to go to JC and like maybe actually get to be a doctor, not some cardio-thoracic lab tech & yeah, i took a leap of faith.
Basically, i learned that despite my passion to be a doctor i'm obv not cut out, like yeah i rocked my my bio teachers world in JC but *reality check* you don't just need bio to be a doctor. You need chem, math and generally a fucking good A'level score and from where i stood with my 1 A and 4 S & Us, i was slapped back into the reality that it's all just one other thing i want but can never have.
BUT that's okay, i mean you can never have all that you want in life no? I was pretty convinced that my life was over, like meaningless. Y'know that feeling when you lose the one thing you've been so sure of. Like you lose yourself. But thanks to the people around me, i realised that i have potential in several other things. Like for one, i enjoy dancing, and no i do not intend to pursue that but it is just proof that you are not defined or meant to just be one thing in life and that if you can't be that, that you've lost all meaning or purpose in life. We all have a purpose, if you don't fulfil the purpose you thought you were suppose to fulfil, it probably isn't your purpose anyway. SO if you think you've lost it, you haven't, you just haven't found your purpose yet.
Back to actually answering the question, Yes i have found something i am passionate about besides dancing and being a doctor. I have my true calling; to be a couch potato and to potato my life away. HAHAHA no i kid (but seriously, idea) Okay, jokes aside. I have found it. i hope this is the one. Cos like i'm 17 and in 4 months i'll be going down a completely diff path from the one i chose just 9 months ago.
I have realised, (note i say realise, cos this has been here since forever i just didn't quite see it) that THIS is what i want. Like literally T H I S . Writing. Like i've always enjoyed blogging, be it about my life or about things i wish were talked about more. & no before you start going all whooooot, no i do not aspire to be a blogger. like no, that's only for prettyskinnygirls obv not something i am, so no, i do not want to be some famous blogger. I want to be a journalist or a RadioDJ, anything that enables me to reach out. Like i have so much to say and so much to talk about and i've realised how writing and just conveying stuff i wanna put out to others makes me feel as a person. It makes me feel better, useful. like when people actually read my blog and they tell me they like how i write you don't get how that kind of satisfaction feels. People think the readers benefit from reading, but sometimes people need to realise writers write for a reason, it usually has to do with personal experiences and how they need the closure, so they write. It's like lifting a weight of your shoulders for the rest of the world to shoulder it with you.
Hello cupcakes okay soooo, it's been awhile. I've not exactly kept my promise of blogging more often, in fact i've not blogged for about 2 months. (maybe more) i've been really busy(mostly lazy) idk it's like life's pretty meh, it's just work and outing & home and sleep & shit. i just find no motivation to blog y'know. Ironic how i'm blogging at work now. Figured it's a better use of time plus i revamped my blog, kinda toned down the bold background and all. Simplicity is key no?
Anyhu, I've decided to do a 30-day blogging challenge to like motivate myself to actually blog. It's like already day 4 so insignificant much? BUT NO. I'll just start from day 1 but i get to cut off like 3 post i don't wanna do cos there're after all 30 days in december. Disclaimer though, i may not get to do(or want to do) all the posts cos i might be busy (or have nothing to talk about for that particular post) I will try my best to do all though, no promises.
Okay so basically there are gajillion of these 30-day blogging challenges out there. But this is the one i've decided to do.
So Day 1. Should be pretty simple. LETSGO.
Day 01- Your Current Relationship.
Awww, well i sorta have a love hate relationship with this question. Mostly cos i would love to tell the world how my relationship is yet i'm not exactly the kind who broadcasts this stuff to people i don't know anymore. (mostly the reason why i haven't been blogging) Okay follow me, like y'know if you tell the universe about your relationship and somehow something happens(god forbid) You'd have to face all the sympathy and all the "aww cheer up it'll be okay" From everybody and personally hate being sympathised. like i could totally do empathy, but no, i don't like it when people pity or sympathise me. So yeah perks of not telling the whole world about your relationship. And also if you were close enough to me for me to want you to know, you'd probably already know cos you'd be following my instagram or my twitter, and trust me, if you followed either, YOU'D KNOW.
Okay back to actually answering the question though, My current relationship? It's pretty darn good. Like okay, let's all agree that relationships are never perfect. There will most definitely be lil bickers or quarrels and defo those legit fucked up arguments & all. But, ultimately what defines the strength of a relationship is the willingness of both parties in putting in the effort to try & make it work. Yes, relationships are alotta work and what scares me most is not knowing how it'll all turn out or whether all the effort's gonna be worth it. But in the end, you have to ask yourself if that fear is worth risking your entire relationship and more importantly, if it's worth the risk of losing that person. Obviously i am scared shitless but i realised how i do not, for the life of me, want to lose him. So yeah, i am more than willing to put int he effort needed and i've also learned to deal with the fear. He's worth it.
Okay, queue the sunshine & butterflies. Haha, yes it's been a pretty amazing relationship. It's kinda crazy how happy he makes me. Like after all those stupid failed relationshits and guys who have left, you kinda just don't expect to meet someone like that anymore. But i guess i must've done something right to have god bless me with him. He looks like the kinda guy girls would automatically deem a jerk(i did too lol) but then what really got to me was how unexpectedly different he was from what i thought he would be. Like don't get me wrong i was not judging him, i just have a thing for reading people and how their personalities and character usually turn out to be. But with him, i was sooo wrong. He is such a dork sometimes it's fucking retarded but so adorably cute. Like who suggests to play a chubby bunny challenge on like the 3rd date like whot even. (we played it anyway. in public. yes.) He has a really eclectic taste in music yet i love so many of the songs he lets me listen to. He also thinks he can sing really well so he decides to sing to me ever so often, it's horrible but i love it. He is also really funny like he can be really lame sometimes but for the most part he just makes me laugh like some mad-drink hyena. He is also really good with words(though he thinks he isn't) And when he says stuff, it's different cos you just feel it, like you know he means it. He also has the temper of a pampered 5 y/o, but he's such a sweetheart you just can't stay mad at him.
It's obviously too soon to tell or to say that he is the one, but i can safely say that i don't ever wanna lose him. We just work, like i can tell him anything, i can confide in him and i can also trust him(which is a lot cos i have serious trust issues)
The list goes on but if i tell you every single thing i love about him, you'd fall in love with him too and i really don't want that sooooo.
Hey Cupcakessss. So i've been really busy(mostly lazy) since i got back from BKK to blog but hey i'm finally doing it now right? Anyhu BKK was cray. Like legit cray fun. Did mostly shopping and eating. I mean whut else cna one do in BKK really. Haha.
SO basically day one we took a noon flight out to BKK and the flight was pleasant, food was nice.
Teaching mommytino the ways of selfies.
obviously flippin excited to leave.
am i the only one who loooooves airline(&hosital) food?
watch the trailer, fall in love & watch it too guys. legit.
Anyhu when we touched down, we settled in in our cutesy boutique hotel a lil off the central shopping district.
thats basically just how the room looks like.(ripped it from the internet forget to take a room shot)
Then we jumped right into shopping. Soooo, 'big surprise' we went to platinum. HAHA Tbh, i was quite overwhelmed by the shitload of shops and stuff they had in platinum.
DAY 1 OOTD.
Honestly top tip for shopping at BKK, wear airy & comfy stuff. i'm not kidding.
So we didn't do much shopping really, mostly walking around. course we did get some stuff.
Platinum fashion mall is basically a wholesale shopping centre where the more you buy in a shop the better cos you can bargain and legit get shit at a significantly cheaper price. So go with more people & get >3 items in a shop & you will legit get a better deal.
And day one it actually fucking decided to rain so most of the street stalls were either closing or we couldn't get to them cos of the rain so we were stuck so like that side of the road(along platinum) so we ended up eating at some blue cafe or smth like that. had some decent thai food, but really after a flight and hours of walking, anything would pass off as good food to us. LOL After that we just headed back and basically crashed.
Food we had for dinz the first night.
Got up pretty early the next morning had sucky bfast at the hotel, my mom says we are too spoilt by luxurious buffet spreads in them fancy hotels that normal hotel spreads just wont cut it. LOL. but this spread was really bad, i chose to just toast my own bread and have it with butter. it was that bad. and the coffee was soooo bad. Every fucken day we chose to crawl our humanly-not-functioning asses out to the shopping district & get like starbucks or Tom&toms.
SO day 2 we had Starbucks.
DAY 2 OOTD. Yes my flipflops are fluorescent pink, & i love them kay. HAHA
omg life in a cup.
Then we took tuktuk down to MBK where we did some shopping. I swear the upper floors where they sold phone cases and stuff was seriously cray. like very freakin shop sold the same shit but yet they found the need to flood the entire floor with several dozens of them. god knows why. but ohwell, i literally didnt get it or anyth for that matter. like they sold cases at SGD4 for one. when Scape sells the @ 2 for SGD5. so er, pass?! BUT best thing about MBK? The freakin mango Salad. OMGUHHH sex sex sex. Like best shit ever and i know this for a fact cos i personally love mango salad and i literally crave it so i have to drag my ass to holland to get a takeaway from thai express for myself sometimes and i used to think that was the shit, but holy hell. The mango salad along the street of MBK was DASHIT. Also got to finally try the famous street BBQ food that my mom was ever so excited to eat and was raving about it like some lil girl. & yes, i need to learn to trust my mom when she says it's good, cos it was fucken awesome.
I'm still craving for the street BBQ food now.
(The photos that i took at MBK are all in my old camera which sadly, died in BKK along with the pictures we took. I was sooo upset cos i didn't realise and just kept taking photos not knowing they weren't saving in the memory card cos that died too. I'm such a loser. fuck)
HAHA. Then we left MBK with some good stuff then headed back to the hotel to dump our shopping and headed back out to platinum again, Cos we barely covered the first block the previous day.
Spent the rest of the day in platinum. Didn't really have any proper meals, what we ate basically consisted of street food, street food and er, street food? HAHA i no kid. But oh yeah no regrets. Like i am literally obsessed with the Chicken noodles and wanton noodles. Gawddd, sex.
mother tino obv excited as fuck for the food. hehehehe.
Yay cococnuts ft my very bare(wtf wears makeup out shopping in BKK la) face.
Squid(sex) on sticks. omfg.
Dundundun, the very much raved about wanton mee & Chicken noodle soup. twas so good. whot is life. idek.
Greenc urry cos one does not simply not eat green curry pls.
Phat thai. Hehe mom's fav thai dish.
Then we walked the streets back to our hotel which were super hapz luh. street food, night markets all. Got some good steals @ the night market along palladium too! Got back to the room slightly earlier like around 8 plus and we were soooo tired form the cray shopping that day we decided to get foot massages at the hotel. Possible best money spent in BKK(besides the food) i swear. After that we got back to our room and crashed straight!
Happy girls getting their happy feet massaged.
Third day we went to indra square and pratunam market which basically had NOTHING that interested me or my mom(have yet to fuck zx up for 'highly recommending' those places to us) so guess where we went? YUP, PLATINUM AGAIN. like no fucking shit 3 days there and still we didn't finish the place. cray. But still got shit loads of stuff there and also lotsa good food!
Cannot, for the life of me, go a day without coffee.
YES we had to have it again cos it was soooo good.
Do you see how fugging happy i am cos this was soooo sex.
Yupp and this again i swear we ate more than we shopped, but no fugging regrets cos the food was soooo good.
But we wanted a nice like proper-sit-down meal. so we went to Central World, just behind Novotel & Platinum and went to this really nice thai restaurant we chose by gut(cos really how dafuq would we know which was the best?) Turns out our mother daughter gut feelings were pretty damn good cos the food there was actually really good.
guys i took this kay. like elgit gorge view from outside central world shopping centre.
we had all the classic thai food luh. Tom Yum, phadthai, pineapple rice. It was slightly pricey, but oh well, it was our last meal in BKK so whatever man. Headed back and i was pretty upset cos i told my mom that i die die must get one more BBQ sotong stick before i leave, but we didnt manage to find any on the last day:'( BUT HOLY SHIT, we were reaching the end of the spread of shops & BAM there was one selling BBQ sotong i wanted to cry cos happiness hehehehe. yes i went quite cray.
Street food.
So i was like really happy and the guy just kept laughing at me HAHA.
BUT GUYS LOOK AT THAT. DOES THAT NOT LOOK LIKE SEX omg.
Hehe, well ater that we basicaly just went back & packed up cos our flight the next day was pretty early. I think it was a noon flight, I definitely miss BKK alr. like i was just there but i need t go back so much. shopping heaven.
OOTD back to singapore.
(tip on flight attire, wear leggings guys, it keeps you warm but at the same time you can legit lunge around in comfort cos leggings are so stretchy & soft.)
Happy girl cos i finally got mysef a new ipad cover from VS woop.
I swear people judged me but whatever okay i was very happy with my marie kitty and starbucks i coudln't care what the world thought hahahahaha.
Essential shot of the preetz sky whilst on the plane guys. HAHA
Our food otw back. was sex too. But then again i love all airline food sooooo.
So this is a pic of all the stuff i got(like just clothes) from BKK.
It was quite alotta stuff but most of it either bought for my friends or i gave away anyway. Would have been siiiiiick if i could've gone to Chatuchak night market, but it's only on weekends and we were there from monday to thursday, oh well, excuse for me to go back again hur hehehe.
My godpa picked us up form the airport yay & When i got back home My dad had redecorated my room. like he and my godpa had spent the past few day that i was in BKK to redo my room, at first i thought they were just gonna repaint my walls, BUT noooooo when i got home i was like omfg is this my room.
But this pic is pretty old hmm. i have done some minor revamping and added some lil stuff like more shelves to display my picture and some table accessories like my new set up can be see on my instaipic.
My room not completely done cos i wanna change out my wardrobe too soooo stay tuned for that heehee.
Alsooo, my dearest jasmine came over to my house to surprise me with, yup, PV cupcakes hehe my baby knows me tooo well.
Love this angel to bits. Hehe
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Next day i headed out to catch Monsters University with Jasmine @ Cine. It was soooo god. Like ulti cutesy movie. Like we were so pumped to watch it cos we've literally waited like shut? 123456789 (really just 12) years for that movie. I mean lil bijs be like "mommy mommy that looks nice, i wanna watch that." Ohhhh nigga please step aside. we've waited our entire childhood for that. HAHA so after the movie we went for some good smoothie king. We tried something new! I had the the Slim-n-Trim Banana and she had the Mango something.
She headed home for dinz while i headed to vivo to meet ZhongXi. Headed back to holland and chilled at my house till he had to leave for some personal training job. Then jasmine and dan both came over for some serious catching up. Gawd 4 days and already i miss those bijs like cray.
Dan had to leave early though, but me and jasmine decided to snuggle up and catch Scream 4 in bed tgt. Haha we were legit screaming tgt in bed.(omguh that came out wrong LOLOLOL) but you get what i mean right, you dirty minded sluts. i kid, i love all of you. horniness and all. hahaha.
Saturday i headed to USS with jasmine to get our seasonal student passes done. I mean you freakin pay whut, $88 for unlimited entires into USS till the end of Nov? That is crayyyyy. After which i finally watched the parade and also finally tried the Transformers ride. wasn't feeling very well so i didnt get to play much. headed back to vivo for dinz. Omguh fulfilled local food crave fuckyeah finally. bakchormee for dinz. then back homeeeee. Good day guise. Good day.
Cutesy USS pics yay.
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OKAY. so i'm finally done. this post was extremely long omg. but yesssss promised i'd post about BKK so. Hehe see you guys in my next update kay. love love.
