Call me maybe.

Sooo, it's pretty damn obvious i'm not really into blogging on a weekly, let alone daily basis. I blog when i please. I'm blogging now cos i'm bored as fuck. & yeah life isn't going as planned. Constanly slacking off instead of studying my ass off in some library or cafe. Not even in the feel for o's anymore. well, probably only have myself to blame for the sudden loss of inspiration & motivation. So here goes, i fell for some guy. Yeah i mean who hasn't? it's so cliché actually. But the worst part, i actually deemed myself fit for such an amazing hot guy. Like what the fuck was i even thinking?! Well, in life we do shit loads of stupid things, this is definitely one of those billboard-worthy examples. I mean i tell people to look in the mirror & fucking know their place. & here i am thinking i'd stand a chance at something with this boy. Dafuq is wrong with you tolentino. Well, i've gotta admit that i've been missing attached life a lot. Like i go out, see couples & feel like texting that jerk. Yeah that desperate right now. Guess i'm just tryna get the hang off being single? idk, i've never really had to deal with feeling this way. tsk. but i intend to stik with either being single or staying the hell away from that mofo for the longest time. I cannot & will not let him do anymore damage to my life than he already has. As for my fairytale prince charming that seems to neither be coming round on his noble steed nor saving this damsel in distress form a life of being #foreveralone. I better start waking up, no? Yeah, gotta get it down that he's not mine. & never will be. 

So here's what i've noticed, getting over someone is like going on a diet. It's like this...

1. You are so fucken motivated to stay away from snacking/him.

2. You start convincing yourself you're better off without snacking/him.

3. You psych yourself out for the next few months/weeks(as if?) of getting used to being without him/snacking.

4. You think of other more productive things to keep your mind off snacking/him.

5. You get a lil itchy so you start flirting/snacking on other guys/snacks.

6. You get real depressed cos you realized the healthy snacks/other guys are nothing like unhealthy snacks/him.

7. It's half way throughout the day & you finally slip when you receive his text/have a sudden craving for snacking.

8. You reply his text/convince yourself one snack won't hurt.

9. You get heated up in his texts/can't stop snacking away.

10.You realize how stupid you've been for replying him/ snacking away, when he doesn't reply you after hours/ you've ran outta snacks.

& then go back to #1. 

So yeah, fyi i fucken typed this out myself. why am i deemed fit to give this conclusion? cos your truly, has have had the privilege to encounter both experiences. 

It's like seriously dude, you need to stop sending girls mixed signals, stop pushing & pulling. Don't leave me hanging on a thread like that. It's driving me crazy. Like turning-into-a-menopausal-bitch-when-you-don't-reply crazy. Like don't call me silly names & get me all smitten then stop replying. then suddenly you decided to text me again, then for no apparent reason stop giving me the time of day. (yes at this moment i just received his text, like his first text, of the mf day. I smiled & wanted to cancel this post, but FUCK NO.) Not receiving his texts gets me so on edge, i get all angst & upset but it's like i have no fucking right to even feel this way. He isn't mine ffs.

Goshhhhh, i'm pretty sure i'm preaching to the choir when i say that you feel me. cos i'm pretty damn sure(judging by all the retweets of my tweets about him) that there are so many peeps out there just ready to put all they have, everything on the line & put themselves out there for that special someone. &i'm to saying that fairy tales don't exist? (cos i have a friend that is a hell of a lucky ass bitch whose happy with her special someone who she waited for for like whut? 3 years?) BUT, we gotta fucken admit & accept the fact that we're not all that lucky. Tsk, so yeah i just wanna post this, cos my feelings are all soooo messed up for that guy right now. 

On the contrary, like every story has gotta have a good side right? He's so cute, he's sweet & definitely makes me feel like i can trust him. But that's just me, & who am i to stop anyone form waiting for that special someone? but yeah, you gotta know that waiting for someone could make or break you, & you gotta damn well accept it. I have. So imma take a few days to figure out of sure if i wanna wait for him or not. 

Don't ever let your self expect. Cos all expectation brings is disappointment.

& if all else fails, remember one thing. It may be stupid to many peeps, but hey you gotta fucken accept how true it is. YOLO. haha.

You only live once.

Also, if anyone judges you on your feelings for that someone, just don't gaf cos they don't know the first thing about how you're feeling, if they did, they would not judge you. So to hell with them.

Bye Bitchachos.

I'm Back Bitches.

This. So much. SO fucking much.

Hello Darlings, OHMYGAWD, it's been like forever huh? Gosh, i've missed blogging but found that i've been muthafarking lazy to get my ass down & blog. Oh well, i kept my promise to my sweetests to blog bout today, simply it was probably the only day worth blogging so far. OKAY, lets get started with a lil catch up,

Life- FUCKED.
Grades-FUCKED.
Love life- FUCKED.
Everything else-FUCKED.

Well, except for a lil detail i shall leave out for now.


Today started off really early, woke up like around 830? dk for fuck. Just lazed in bed & raped my pillows and bolsters. Listened to music & started on Vampire Academy. It's a book btw, smth to take my mind off how FUCKING MUCH I MISS TVD ALR:( ugh, gotta maintain, 3 more months, i can wait. Okayyy, then around 930 started calling those bitches to make sure they were all awake. then went to get ready. got dressed & walked over to Jasmine's block & met up with Charmain on the way. ( finally got jasmine's block right HAHA) Then bus-ed down to vivo, met up with Evon & headed to giant to get the stuff we needed; cups drinks chips blahblah. Charmain even got a ball, speaking of which i have no fucken idea where it is now dafuq. HAHA Then lynette came, looking all banged up with her bed head, forever looking shag:) Then headed over to sentosa. Went with jasmine first to imbiah station to get pizza,  gosh we had to walk like fucking far with our heavy-ass bags. PLUS the weather did a banged-up job of 'giving us a hand' by raining down on us. GREAT. i swear my mood was so fucked i want dot just go home. But had to keep a positive mood. But thankfullyyyyyyy, the rain stopped:') but that was after me & jasmine had to endure an entire bus ride from imbiah to beach station filled with irritating people. like OKAY, not being some racist mofo, but like OMGOMGOMG. we couldn't breathe fuck. But it was so worth it when we reached beach station, & it stopped raining oh yeahhhhhh. So set up our mat & all. Nom-ed on our pizza & chips, thn headed to play in the water for about an hour just walking around, you cannot imagine how just that lil time spent there, caused me fucking sunburn alr? gosh. Okay then there was this lil boy that was following us around, okay he wasn't exactly small? hmm, ut he was cute, in some non-pedo way. LOL he wasnfollowing evon, how adorableeeeeee. he must;ve thought she was his age or smth, (evon you're probably reading this now, hehe, love you my cute small friend) then we all got out of the water & the 3 siaoehy evon char main & lynette decided that the sun wash;t already being a batch so they dragge their mat out & started basking in the freaking sun. me & jasmine hid in the shelter like vampires or smth. Just laying on the beach, blasting music & letting the sound of the waves & wind blow in your hair, i swear it felt so good. Just lay there for a bit then started photo-bombing. Took some really decent pictures. then took our turns to shower & took one of those prams or smth idk what exactly to call it:/ back to the station cos we were so dead beat. then headed to our usual lepak place at vivo (shhh...) then emily cameeeee:) huhu, slacked all the way till bout 5 plus then as we were walking to get dinner, some of us bought some new bracelets. Loveeeee them. then dinner-ed at Seoul Garden HotPot harbor front. Nom-ed till 6 plus then headed back to vivo to collect my marie keychain & shop-ed bait (more like window shop) at F21. Went home shortly after cos we were all so drained form the fun at the beach. & sooooooo, got home & showered & got started on blogging. Was afraid if i didn't start i might fall asleep:/ okayyyy so imma get to uploading the pics now, might go muthafarking crazy.

OOTD. Newlook cropped top & denim shorts.

Woohoo.

OMFG, I want this NOW.

With Jasmine.

& again.

& again. HAHA likeaboss.

Yes, we like mangoes. Your argument is invalid.

Fun in da sun.

With Evon.

With jasmine.

Charmain & lynette.

Petite Bitches. HAHA evon & jasmine.

Fuck i can be a pro photographer. Took this in the first shot please. (Charmain)

Lovin my new contacts.

Boom.

With charmain.

Charmain & jasmine.

Charmain & evon.

Group shot!

Closerrrrr.

Jumpshot. HOHO

Jumpshot. HUHU.

WHO TAKE ONEEEEE. HAHA.

Credits to jasmine:*

LOVE THIS. FUCKK. Credits to jasmine too:*

After it all, at gongcha. my hair is so fucked.

Emily Xiaojie finally came.

Love herrrrr<3

We're only girls. I mean who doesn't take pictures in the toilet. HAHA.

Love these new bracelets.

Lynette's Yumy kimchi hot pot! SOOO eating this the next time i dine at seoul garden hotpot.

Lynette instragam-ing her dinner.

Charmain & emily.

Chili sauce? idk, found it so cute.

Jasmine & Evon.

me & jasmine again.

MY Bibimbap. Miss this like asdfghjkl! Last had this with dancers at korea pleaseeee.

Awright, that's all bitches, tired as fuck so imma crash real soon. Thanks for reading! I promise TO TRY & update as often alright? Love you guys!

Xoxo.

The Hardest Thing

Hello Darlings! So sorryyyy, ugh i've not updated in over a week:( i've been soooo caught up in things lately. but yeah, imma do an update on some stuff that's been going on. then might do another random post later:)

So last saturday, headed to Equinox @ stamford hotel for high tea with my parents on the 69th floor.(HAHA) well, i had really high expectation of the meal, but MEH, it was totally not worth mentioning. Gotta admit the view was utterly breathtaking. would go up again for the view, most definitely,but for the food? fuck no-.- was so normal like nothing had an impact on me. still NO fight for the buffet spread at triple3 meritus mandarin. After that headed home then changed into shorts & birks, was wearing my new nude pumps, ohmygawd, they're gorgeous & so fucking comfortable please! Love them sooooooo much! after that headed to clement mall with jasmine to get some stuff & she had dinner at swenses. Then to the pasar malam then back to my place to lepak & crap.

Rest of the week was semi boring,

• went smoochiezz with jasmine on monday after dance & ig to some stuff, nail polishes & lipsticks too.
• Bakut Teh with that dumb & his mom & nephew after school on tuesday. 
• Headed to cyrus with dumb again on wednesday to catch up on gossip girl eps. UGHHHH RAGEEE moment. Don't wanna watch it anymore:( Chuck & blair aren't together anymore. FUCK this.
• Headed to clementi mall on thursday with jasmine & lynette after ISP, then they packed mac to my place for dinner & they crapped there till about 9 plus:)
• Good friday was a slack day. headed to mass around 12 & got back about 2 plus. had maggimee for lunch, like talk about abstaining. Then watched sitcoms on MIO the whole day after that. 
• Black saturday was the same, got some work dine, & watched sitcoms on tv too. Haha. BUT made rainbow cupcakes & they are sooo chio, yay! pics below!
• Easter is today! Weee~ had a yummy feast daddy made. Forever fat cos of his cooking. now i needa hubby like my daddy:> 

Currently waiting for those 2 bitches (lynette & jasmine) to come over to nom for easter dinner with my family:)

Okay, pics now! x.

Bye bitches!

Xoxo.