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I am who i am. Not who you want me to be. & I don't live to fucking please anyone. Problem?

Hello Darlings! I'm soooo extremely sorry for not updating the past 2 days? I have been so fucking busy with all my school assignments & coursework & dance too? Ugh, haven't had much, or ANY time for myself. But i managed to rush through my homework today, (kinda didn't bother to complete, but nonetheless.) & find time to post this. Okayy, so I'm not gonna do a detailed post on how the past few days went down. Just gonna mention the highlights of them i guess? So this won't end up like some essay-inspired blogpost! Haha.

15/01/12- Sunday
Alrighttttt, so i basically rotted at home the whole day & chiong-ed as much homework as i could.Filmed a tutorial which 'm currently uploading. Check out my beautyblog or channel for the tutorial tomorrow/the day after!:> Then headed to meet Jasmine & went for our long-awaited SIMPLE PLAN concert yoh!  It was at Fort Canning, paid like over 100$ to stand? But who cares, Gawd, we had the time of our lives! It was awesome, like no joke! took a few videos of the songs i loved. But shan't upload them today as its late and i need go to bed soon.. having a long day tomorrow(lessons till4) can die. Might dedicate an entire blog post on the concert some day soon:) ZOMG pierre threw his towel at the end of the concert. fuggg wanted it:/ Ohwell. managed to like slowly & progressively squeeze our way from somewhere behind, to about 3 rows from the front? LikeABoss huh?:) It ended around 10. Bbyboy & jason came & fetched us home. Waited for a cab for damn long uh. Was so tired, KO-ed on the cab. Got home, showered with damn cold water & had maggimee. Played back the videos i took, some were fucked cos i accidentally covered the mike:( Loved PERFECT the most. it was like ZOMG, the whole crowd was shouting for them to perform it. TheShiz.

Photospam ahead yoh!

When we reached Fort canning.

After the Concert. 

i swear, their drum set & back drop, fucken chio, NO JOKE.

Sweating & grabbed a drink cos we sang for sooo long without any water.

My Yummy Tomyum maggimee. Salivating over this as I'm posting:/

16/01/12- Monday
Monday blues as usual. Sian to the very max. Had lessons blahblah. Was in the post-concert mood with jasmine & couldn't focus, kept singing can't keep my hands off you * perfect during maths:/ vandalized my hand too\m/ Dance was boring, didn't do any productive things. Ended at 445 & buy was waiting for me already outside:> bus-ed down to jason's house. He wasn't home but Amanda was there. Lepak-ed and crapped again:> haha! Ordered mac & nom nom-ed before we left. Cab-ed home around 630. Chiong-ed homework until i fell asleep:( So didn't get to do much at all. Boring day hur?! oh well.

Concert mode.

OmNomNom:>

TODAY.
Ladadadada. #nowplaying SummerParadise by Simple Plan!♥

 CSo todayyy, was today i guess? Started off LIKE CRAP. idk, can't handle all this crap from everyone anymore. Its like everything that comes out form their mouth irritates the fuck out of me. Everything they say just increases my stress level. Fucked. Was on the verge of a breakdown this morning i swear. Got to school & felt slightly better cs there were like people who actually knew how i felt so i guess i felt better? I can't do what y'all expect of me okay? problem?-.- Got crap from Maths teacher for not completing homework, like wtf? not like i have time to complete all my assignments uh please. Got fucked by chinese teacher, why? cos she's a menopausal bitch & she's got nothing better to do. Ugh. D&T was the best i guess? Cos mrslim is da best. hands down. got pulled out form D&T for the stupid Literature skit that we were all forced into doing. As expected, i showed my fuckedup attitude. I mean like, if I'm not agitated why would i show my attitude? for fun? you siao ah? or stupid. You think you pregnant i scared uh cher? got another round of crap form Mschew. Couldn't take it. Walked out & walked as fast as i could too. Bby came to fetch me & we bus-ed to tiong. This is where i wanna thank you baby boy. 

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Babyboy, thanks for everything. You're always the only one there for me whenever & wherever i need you, my shoulder to cry on & my pillar of strength:')

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So yeah, i broke down on the bus. i broke down hard. i couldn't stop the tears from flowing. it was just one of those days for me, when it felt like everything was crashing down on me. I felt like i was on the verge of giving up again. But no, babyboy was there to pick me up, thankgod. He hugged me so tight & just let me cry. cried nonstop till we missed the stop at tiong & decided to get off at GWC. He brought me to have Swirlart instead, cos he knew how happy it made me:') Mixed so many flavors cos i wanted to try. HUHU, cyrus' opening tomorrow yoh. Now i kinda rather he go there then chambers:/ Oh well. He's working sooo. hope he won't have time to even go gaming at all. HAHA. Okayy, so did my coursework at swirl art & he was all disturb here disturb there luh! But managed to complete most of it. Then went over to Spize for dinner. Had rotiprata. was damn good:> miss having spize with him yoh! Ohkayy, so after that he sent me home, slept throughout, thats why I'm still awake now. Got home & went down again with daddy to get my hair cut!:) was super excited, went to the shop my dad alwas went to & like sieh heng, like superrrr. Cos our old neighbor who left to australia with her husband & son actually came back for cny, so i had her cut my hair instead of her mom(which usually cuts my dad's) She did an awesome job, as in I'm loving the look & all, Just that, i wanted to cut it much more thinner, but my dad being my dad, he was all, enough alr lahhh. but happy he let me go out & cut alr:/ Haha, at most just go cut somewhere else myself ? Got back & chiong-ed my D&T then got to editing the tutorial. Manage to get it done but forgot about the maximum length youtube has. Mine is 18 mins, max is 15. oh crap:( goota split it or trim it more.. shall dot hat tomorrow, so it just means i waited up for nothing. Ugh fuck. Well, was blogging & waiting for my tutorial to finish uploading to youtube. ugh, took forever & failed attempt:( Ohwell. You win some you loose some.

Best!

Thank you bbyboy:')

Hoho, At spize.

Alright so thats all for todays post. Its 2 already, gotta get to bed, having a long day tomorrow. Ohkayyy, Bye

Xoxo.

Oh, yes you do. & only you.

Hello Darlings! Okay, so this is a real short update, depending on my mood as the post progresses. Might add a random rant below. Haha, shall see:> Oh well, so today was quite normal i guess, like nth much special ehy? Woke up & caught latest ep of TVD. Its was OKAY only i guess.


*disclaimer: the following part is a TVD rant, if your strongly against reading it or simply have no interest in reading, just skip it alright:>


Haha, it was niceee lah. But like thing was.. DELENA, Y U NO HAVE ANOTHER KISSING SCENE?!:( Well, i thought there'd be something after the big kiss & all.. but sadly, NO. Ohwell, they say some love never die aye? Hope it ends as delena & not stelena:/ But gotta admit.. the tyler & caroline scene in the beginning was super touching & damn sad:'( Fuck klaus. Sucha inconsiderate muthafarker luhh. Ohwell, he's lived for a few centuries, he's gotta be some cranky old bitch by now. OKAY, i don't ask for much, but just that DELENA just get together already! Pleaseeeeeeeee, this is sexually frustrating y'know. The suspense is super killer:(
Okayy, for those TVD fans out there or ppl who are all, "whaddup with this fangirl lug? Whats so eff good about this show luhh?" & all... Here's a lil sum' sum'.

Skip to 2:43 for the tyler & caroline scene. Its super touching:'(

Stephan's fucken badass. *faints.

& then he goes & be a dick to elena. Ugh, jerk. Delena ftw.

Ohkayy, so after the ep, waited till about 1230 when lynette replied me & headed for our study/homework date @queenstown library. Crapped a bit with her & H2H too. It was nice & also semi depressing, to the extent she stopped productive & lost her mood in doing maths:/ As for me, i managed to complete 2 D&T components, my english essay first introduction & my chinese essay. So i can say it was pretty productive huh? Only managed to complete it around 830, so bus-ed home & had dinner. After dinner, continued on with D&T & managed to finish another component & half of th last component too. Hoping i can get it down before the concert tomorrow. GAHHH, ITS SIMPLE PLAN'S CONCERT tomorrow!! Can die, super excited:') But still not very happy about what iv've decided to wear. shall go through my wardrobe again tomorrow/later:) Okay, end of todays post. 

Mood's okok i guess:p So shall move on to the next part of the post, MY CURRENT MOST WANTS. 

Imma do some wants here that are non beauty related. Like not make up or beauty related. The make up & beauty related ones i'll have them up on my BeautyBlog along with my haul from yesterday alright:) Do go check them out!

Okayyy, so here goes...

1.Nude pumps/peeptoes from Christian Louboutins.

2. Have macaroons from LADURÉE.

3. Olympus Pen

4. Leopard Envelope Clutch.

5.Feather Earing.

6. THIS.

HUHU:>

Okayyyy, That's all for today Darlings! Do continue to support me y'all! Might do a tutorial tomorrow for my concert makeup look:> will be really hectic, but nonetheless, i'll try! HUHU:> Love you! Bye

Xoxo.

Missing you hurts.

I need a lil pick me up to calm my nerves.

Hello Darlings! Okayyy, so first time blogging in the morning hur? Well, its cos apart from my hectic school schedule, i still have to find time to catch #tvd's latest eps y'know. So blogging whilst waiting for the pe to load:> Oh & also cos i didn't get to blog yesterday as i was dead beat. Currenlty missing him super much:/ well, shan't rant about that now. Off to the blog post.
Soooo, yesterday, had dance & all. Was quite a productive day? In the morning has maths for 2 periods, was super productive again, chiong-ed questions with jasmine. Ugh, but I'm afraid that I'm focusing so much on maths i might neglect bio or smith:( CANNOT UH! Gotta balance them off! So after that was dance. Judging by the muscle aches I'm having now, i'd say it was a pretty intensive training yesterday. Of course not as intensive as the dance camp, but nonetheless, Intensive it was.

MDC swag.

After dance headed pop tiong with Jasmine, Charmain, Jingning, Germaine & joey for lunch. Had my favorite banmian yoh. Loving it sooo much. Told bbyboy i was having it & he was all "WALAOOOO!" Haha, cos i always have it with him:> Oh well, lives been really hectic & its just beginning yoh so i guess we gotta get used to not being able to see each other as often or even at all, for that matter:( BUT, O's are far more important at this moment. everything else can wait. if they can't wait, they're not worth it? Right?:> okay, so after lunch, headed to tiong to walk walk cos superrrr sian & no where to go. Walked around at watsons & got some stuff with Jingning. Shall post them maybe later tonight or tomorrow as i haven't found the time to take pictures of them yet. Then joey & germaine left for home. Then went to lepak at our usual place, gotta admit i miss when we actually HAD the time to go & lepak everyday, no care in the world. Hais, but we're growing up, gotta be more responsible ehys? Chitchat & crapped with them till about 5 plus then they went to get froyo @the basement & walked to tiong parks busstop & bus-ed home, Ning came over to my house to lepak awhile & see cotton^^

Stupid bitch hoolahoop-ing on ma bed.

Then changed & headed out with her & family to clement mall @7. Went to popular to get the stuff i needed, (tys & some pretty pens) then went for some window shopping, realized clement mall has quite a few nice shops selling quite affordable apparel hur? shall go check it out when i actually GOT money:/ Then had dinner, Guess what? BANMIAN again. Haha, cos I wanted to eat something soupy? But it turned out awesome:) sooo much fucking better than the one at bbyboy's house(y) haha. Then went for more window-shopping & ning left around 9? Camwhored quite bait with bbg. HERE'S YOUR FEATURE OKAY GIRL! HUHU:>

Cos we sexy like that.

Check out her tongue stud uh, jelly fuck.

Bus-ed home with family around 10. Tired max, got home showered & toh-ed instantly.  SOOO, thats about it. Imma upload some pics now:>

Delight.

ALRIGHTY, Off to catch my TVD ep now as its alr loaded, then off tot he library to complete my weekend assignmentsss. Soo pod girl siul:/ Oh well. Hope that queen-of-sleeping LynetteLew wake up soon! I not i'll be forever alone at the library doing work myself:( Okay, thats all! Thanks for visiting my blog, do continue to support my BeautyBlog too! Bye.

Xoxo.

A thousand years.

But i'm gonna love you like i've never been broken.

Hello Darlings! So super sorry for not being update daily, missed a post yesterday. I was soooo fucking worn out from doing work. I still got work to complete now. Like 20 maths questions & here i am blogging away likeaboss.  Okay, will just start off with yesterday, sooo, school as per normal yesterday. Piles of homework just kept rolling in by the hours. So decided to head down to queens town library with Jasmine & lyentte after school to complete our homework. We spent the whole october & november mugging away there last year & it managed to bring us to sec 4, so its officially our go-to place when we 've got things we die die need to get done, well for me at least. Cos like when I'm home, there's teevee, blogging, tweeting, fb-ing, tumblr-ing, SLEEP-ing & the list goes on& on. Soo, staying at the library keeps me focused & all. Managed to get quite bait of work done there Had a bite with them & headed home around 830. Reached home * continue-d with the rest of my work. finished around 12 & was too damn tired to even keep my eyes open to even on my laptop. So headed to bed around 1. 

&& here are some pics from yesterday:>

Our all-time-favorite, chicken chunks at the cafe galilee @ the library. & the my set text for literature.

Chapter by chapter summary for a 24-chapter book. No joke, can die.

My awesome notebook, actually got a new one as this one's quite flimsy, but loving it so much i haven't had the heart to change to the new one yet.

Photospam in between breaks.

&again.

Jasmine being all focus.

& again. HUHU:>

Tgt with jasmine.

As for todayyy, same as yesterday i guess. Thankfully only had maths * eblgishhomework from today. but i've got back log of the rest, like chinese, D&T, Bio &  SS too. Ugh stresssss. So after school had ISP, intensive studyprogramme thing on Mtahs. Was pretty productive, ok fuck, it was fucking productive, didn't fall asleep & chiong-ed through a lot of questions with jasmine. thankful she's in my band, she motivates me a lot. After ISP, which ended at 5, headed straight home as its my godpa's birthday & we're celebrating at my house:> My godbrother & all came over too. HUHU, had awfully chocolate cake, awesome max. While they were eating i filmed a review video on the two foundation i got recently, which i uploaded onto my BEAUTYBLOG. Go check it out alright? 

Some pics from today:>

Simplicity.

Dad's Special caviar appetizer. Love it:> 

Also filmed a cover, ZOMG. IKR, like idk what got into meeee. i was soooo bored & had that song on replay & singing along to it, & i thought? it wouldn't hurt anyone right? HAHAHA, idk what kind of response imma get, prolly alotta hate & stuff? But people you should learn to LOVE not HATE! hahahaha! ohwell, if you're not liking what you're hearing, just close it uh? continue for? haiyo. Brains people, I'm sure y'all have one?!  

*Disclaimer: this video is a cover of Christine perri's song, A thousand years. & i did this out of fun & boredom, please keep your nasty comments to yourself as i do not to feel more insecure about myself. This is my first cover & idk what has gotten into me to make me post thisss, but nonetheless.. here you gooo, i hope you do try to enjoy:p

Alright! So that's all for today, its really late. its 3 now & i gotta wake up @6 for school. Haha I'm fucked:/ But really wanted to get these two posts up by today(this one & the one on my beauty blog). Anyway, thanks for viewing & do support my BeautyBlog too alright:) Oh, You can ask me anything on form spring & also, Add me on twitter, @avantevuitton. HUHU:> Bye.

Xoxo.

Stickwithu.

No shit, i is eating, all day & all night.

Hello Darlings! Sooo, its been 5 days now? & I'm still sick. Ugh, fml luh seriously. Well, sad to say, i realize my blog is getting more & more boring hur? But what to dooo?! Life's getting boring luh. Nth good ever happens anymore. Maybe i feel this way cos I'm sick & all, But no joke. Nothing interesting ever really happens. My mood is kinda fucked now, cos i just completed, or semi-completed my D&T assignment, which was really painful to do. Had to find like 100 pictures of innovative design? Who would've thought it would be so hard to find 100 pics man? Like i mean with google & all.. but yeah, it was a fucken pain to complete. took me quite a while to find them, then i had to arrange them in MSW such that i can print them tomorrow & have 8 pics printed per page. But managed to survive through that torturous assignment, Thankgod. Oh, & Mrs.Lim announced our theme for O's this year. Its Amusement. Hmms, first thing that comes into my mind when i think of that word? That motherfugging roller coaster in Korea that we queued for for 2 hours & ended up not being able to sit as were super irritated by the waiting time, super long queue & were freezing to death. UGHHH, still can't seem to let that go, was quite excited to ride it luhh. Okay, sidetrack uh?
SO this morning i forgot to set alarm but thankfully my maid was able to wake me up, was having breakfast & cotton was giving my puppy-dog eyes again, asking me for a piece of my bread. He just seems to loveee food from the table:> Haha, managed to get a shot of him.

My Lil Puss Pup In Boots.

Y'know that bitch of a teacher i was ranting about yesterday, my english teacher? She;s gone yoh! Changed teachers with band 4. So Mr. DarrenChong came to band1 & that sick bitch is giving hell to the poor band4 peeps. OHMAJOYS. Haha, like super bad uh? but just thankful, cos i kinda really already couldn't stand her on the very first lesson, what more the rest of the year?:/ As for the chinese teacher i said i hated too? She's still there:/ Second day of lesson only, got sent out of class with jasmine, ella & lynette for not doing some stupid piece of review. Ugh, hate this kind of teachers. But wasn't so bad cos were crapping & lepak-ing while using phone likeaboss outside & the rest were rotting away inside listening to her talk bullshit. LOL. After school bbyboy came & fetched me. Went to Bm to meet his friend & take stuff, then down to his house to lepak & wait for carlito. ZOMG, had the worst banmian ever. Like wahhhh, damnmm, puipui, no words to describe, just sieh disgusting uh. Then ate prawn noodle instead. That mofo happy happy sit in front of me & eat Chicken Cutlet when he knows i've been craving his house's chicken cutlet for the longest timeee, just that i've not been well & all. So disciplined this time lag, drink so much water, no chili or fried stuff. & yet, still not feeling better. FML, NO JOKE. Then went up to his house to lepak. His nephew is the cutest:> Last time sieh dao oneee. Now primary school already, huhu, talked to him & stuff.. He's primary one & his allowance is fugging $2. When i was primary 1, my allowance never exceed $1 siul. Sad life i had. Haha, he was damn cuteee. Saw my doing my homework(talk about guai much?!) & he said, i finish all my homework in school already. I was like good boy:> But in my heart i was all, HAHAHAHAHAHA, if you thats considered homework, YOU MAD BRO?! You dk what's install for you. HAHA. But like he'd prolly not even get what i meant, so didn't like say that to him. Plus he's too darn cute to disturb uh. Like he's those kind of cute boys that girls look at & know they're gonna be hot when they grow up. HUHU:> So slacked @ bbyboys house & did some work too. Eventually fell asleep:/ was soooo tired luh. Left his place around 6 & he bus-ed with me back to my place. Then he left to meet carlito. God knows what he's doing now. Haha.

Just a kiss.

So spent my whole evening and night doing my stack of work. English and the Stupid D&T. i swear know. I'm actually considering dropping it. Like ughhh, taking up my tuesdays for coursework. too time consuming already:( i officially have no life luh sia. Monday dance till around 5. Tuesday D&T coursework till 5. Wednesday lessons till 430. Thursday maths ISP till 5. Friday dance till 230. Wahhhh. Fucked up can. Just thinking about my weekly schedule turns me off. Well, at least i have time to update my blog.. Might only be able to update my beauty blog every weekend or fridays from now on. But i will definitely try my best okay! Thank you all for supporting my blogs & all! Love you guys super much! & also wanna wish all my friends taking o's this year too, to work hard to don't give up. Life may fucking suck now(you don't say?) But it just for another 10 months, & then we're free okay! So All the best & JIAYOU!
h & i saw this super chio cake on tumblr. I swear, imma get this for my 18th débutante. Love it so much uh!

Its super small here, But its like, OMG. Leopard print in every bite. SWAG.

Oh, Do check out my TUMBLR too okay! Thanks!:*

Well, thats all for todays post. Bye.
Xoxo.

Not cut out for this.

Hey bitches, here's a little shoutout for y'all.

Hello Darlings! So todays just gonna be a really short post. Im super tired & super not feeling well enough to post a long wordy & picture-ful post:(
So basically, school today as per normal, but lessons started today, so like no more slacking & all. Super sian i swear. They give homework like free like that. Plus Haven't even touched my Holiday homework so could;t hand in anything at all. Got fucked by a few teachers for not having anything to submit. Gave recess amiss to borrow & snap shots of their homework to copy when i got home:/ i know its bad & all, but c'mon, not one person i know has never copied homework form another person before. Wven if there were, that person would most probably not be a reader of my blog:p so whogivesafuck? Had a semi-Crappy day. After school went to the hall to see the seniors get their o's results back. Then headed to dance. Slacked a lot at dance but ended up running round anyway. Throat still pain as hell. FML uh. After dance headed to tiong to get some stuff for school. Bought A3 size papers for D&T, a couple markers, Eraser, some sticker to help prevent punch-ed papers from tearing & a new notebook. PLus got my English TYS too, didn't want my new english bitch-of-a-teacher to come & give me hell again. Hate my new english teacher, i mean she's okay all, during PE uh, but english? Bitch comes out yoh. Not cool. Chinese? even worst. ugh, miss last years chinese teacher. This years one? sucks. New ss teacher is fucken hilarious though he has some kind of pedo face:/ Oh, & baby surprised me at tiong, that lil stalker:p HAHA. Anywayy, he accompanied us around tiong got the stuff we needed & headed home around 5, zoo tired & had too much work to chiong. Got home, ate & started with my holiday homework already. Managed to complete English & Paper 2 of maths. Maths teachers not so much of a bitch, so still can procrastinate a bit. For D&T supposed to find 100 pics, i only managed to get 44. DIEDIE. like literally:/ super tired & no motivation to go look for more, so decided to stop, cos i doubt she'll be using all 100 pics tomorrow uh? Idk, i'll think of some excuse tomorrow.

Check out the number of worksheets i managed to snap pics off to copy, oh & theres more.

Eyes are feeling super heavy & its only 11+ now, not even 12 siul. Hais, feeling so worn out by school, like school draining all the energy & fun in me. UGH, can't wait for O's to be over man. Gotta really start getting serious about school work. No joke. No time to fool around & procrastinate. Maintain UH TOLENTINO. Mai stress!

Keep Calm & Carry on.

Ohmygawd & my shoes fucked too. Maid went to wash it like 4 times? Wash already, clean. Then when it starts drying, it starts becoming like this. Everlast leyy? Wow. Rip off sia. Fucken pissed luhh. UGH, Fml, Stuff just keeps getting worst uh. Just hope tomorrow'll be a better day..

Look at it luh. Like i soaked it in mud like that can? FML.

Okay so shall stop ranting already. Gonna end this post nowww. Will update tomorrow & See if i can think of anything to update on my beauty blog too. If theres anything y'all wanna request for wither here or my beauty blog,  JUST FORMSPRING ME OKAY!:> Thanks for the support loves! Goodnight! Bye.
Xoxo.